How fast things can change....

When I put up that last post, I thought my aunt had made it through the worst of her cancer. That night, we had to take her to the emergency room and three days later she was gone. The last couple of weeks have been spent trying to take care of all the stuff she left behind. Most of it is not too hard, she paid off a lot of her bills about a week before. It's just hard having to go through all of it. Finding cards that we gave her for her last birthday in January, just all kinds of things that we thought wouldn't be the last time we did it.

She left behind a huge hole with me and mama. She wasn't much younger than mama and it has always been the two of them together. When something went wrong with one, they went straight to the other. Now mama feels like she's been cut loose, she just doesn't know what to do with herself now. She was always more like my sister than my aunt. That's what people always took the three of us for, sisters.

Her little granddaughter Karrie is having a real hard time as well. She's only 4 and she asks almost every day why memaw had to go to Heaven. She was sick today, she told mama that she missed her memaw. My aunt always held her and let her nap when she was sick and felt bad. She's pretty much been in mama's lap all day. That little girl loves her memaw so much, she knew everything would be alright if she could get to memaw. Now she's just as lost as me and mama.